Same Tree, Different Season

 “Same tree, different season. Remember, everything is temporary.” - Unknown

 

                  Our lives are composed of different seasons. As we go through life seasons change. Sometimes we are in a season of struggle. Other times we are in a season where life is bountiful. There are in between seasons, too. I saw a picture of a tree in different seasons. Despite being the same tree, it looked very different in each season. I think we are like that.

                  In winter a tree loses its leaves. Often, it is bare. The tree is just branches without green leaves. As humans our winter is when we are struggling. Our struggle may be apparent. We may appear without the vibrant life of green leaves on a tree. 

                  My winter is when I struggle with depression and anxiety. It is a time when suicidal thoughts take hold. My winter is when life becomes too much. I feel as if I am a shell of what my life is supposed to be. I am like a barren tree. It is a time that hurts. It is my winter.

                  Springtime brings green leaves to a tree. The tree is full of life. We can compare that to when we are doing well. Our spring is when the trials of mental illness are not filling our lives. We are engaged in life. Just as the leaves of a tree bring color into the world around it, we exude a sense of wellbeing.

                  For me spring emerges when my treatments are working. It is when therapy leads me into a positive frame of mind. Life can be seen in the smile on my face. The green leaves are seen in my willingness to engage in life and to live more fully. 

                  There are times in between these two extremes. These are the summer and fall of our lives. We may not be full of life, but we are engaged with life. In these times we are trees with leaves of different colors. Some of our leaves are just sprouting. Some of our leaves have fallen. Our mental health may not be the best, but we are getting by. Maybe we have some help or maybe we are employing the self-care strategies we have learned.  In summer and fall our struggles may be visible, but we are living productively with them. 

                  Seasons change. So too, does our mental health. I believe this is true of all people, not just those of us with a mental illness. All people go through seasons. There are times when we struggle, times when we flourish, and times that are a little of both. Life mirrors nature. As we live, we go through different seasons. The important part is that we remember seasons change. Our lives are not always winter. Likewise, they are not always spring. We need to remind ourselves that in depths of winter we are being prepared for the new life of spring. It may be difficult to remember that there are other seasons when we are struggling through winter. We need to hold on. Seasons pass. Our mental health unfolds like the seasons. We may need treatment and therapy to move us into spring, but we can make it. 

                  I think I will try to paint this idea of our lives mirroring the seasons. If I manage to paint something that captures what I am envisioning, I will share it in a future post. As we move through our lives, I wish all of us more springs than winters.